The One Where She Falls in Love with Him
The wind that we agreed was too cold for existence
whips memories of you through every exposed crevice of my sweater
In the back ally when our frost-bitten hands held the joint in one hand and drank chamomile tea in the other
I don’t want to be yours or you to mine
But I don’t want you to be his
Because we are each other’s
Best friends
I miss you
I want you back
When we both said the same thing at the same time and agreed our brains were connected
my soulmate – your soulmate
I’m giddy – is this love?
Are we in love? We question it? Maybe both too shy to admit or fully explore?
We’ll never know.
When we lied to my mom
Snuck out to that rave and were intoxicated for weeks
From the music and the thrill
I want to hang on to you like a
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Hold on for dear life –
But If I don’t let go,
It’ll only hurt more
I miss you.
hallucinate your name on my phone
And I imagine your little ellipsis
As you text me about a dog in a cute jacket
Your Instagram -our favourite sushi
with him
Can I be j e a l o u s and h a p p y for you?
I let the salt D
R
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P
into my mouth
As oceans whirl in my eyes
Storms so rough
I can’t see clearly
Because at the same time
I am overjoyed
And I want nothing more than your happiness
So I swing out with you
And I let go of you
And
F
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F
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Into the unknown
Where I’ll learn
How to move on and be close to you
In different ways
And give you the s p a c e you need
To connect your brain with his
And will rejoice in the times I get to be a part of it
And I’ll learn to let my happiness for you
Outweigh the pain of letting you go
I’ll hold your heart inside mine
Forever
And keep the photo albums of us
Stored on the top shelf of my memory
And we’ll blow the dust off together
And reminisce about being 16
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